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hey there
as i sit in my room watching comedy central and Louis sleeping next to me, i feel such an urge to get back into my hobbies that brought me joy. its been almost a year since ive posted a new video on youtube. i cant begin to tell you how many times ive caught myself thinking about posting a new video.

these last 9 months i have constantly been doing something stressful. if it wasnt some huge project at school it was closing shifts at work. if it wasnt work then it was just trying to breathe and spending time with family, friends and my wonderful bf. i never had more than one day off from my hectic schedule. when i would have a day off i would sleep till 3pm because i was constantly exhausted. i gained weight, always looked tired, never wore makeup and wore sweats out side of work.

all this has changed! i quit work and finished the semester at school. these last 2 weeks have been such bliss. i cant begin to tell you how happy my heart and mind is. it feels like i am 17 all over again. ive been getting back in making cards, putting on makeup and wearing clothes that arent yoga pants and some random tshirt. lol.

this all hit me a week ago when i was having tea time with a good friend of mine (yes, im newly obsessed with tea and have tea time OFTEN haha). we were just sitting at her table, talking, laughing, making the most random jokes and thats when i laughed my REAL laugh. the one that sounds completely different from your everyday laugh. the one that starts in the bottom of your belly and just feels really good. that very moment i felt like my old self. i was finally happy after being suppressed for so long.

ever since then, ive been much happier in general. im losing weight and im constantly cleaning out my room. when i was busy i didnt realize how cluttered my room was. i cant begin to tell you how much scrapbooking items i threw out last night. it feels good looking at my room nice and organized again. soon my dad will tear my room apart to remodel it so im enjoying my last moments in here.

sorry this post is so long.. i just wanted to let you guys know exactly where ive been. i plan on getting back into making videos but my computer is crap. i want to buy a new macbook but its hard when youre unemployed lol. ill figure things out, i always do.

i have a favor, if you guys have inspirational makeup pictures please message them to me here or youtube. i want to really get back into the swing of things. ok guys, enough of my gibberish... i will see you soon! :)

love
vanes

BRUSHES FOR SALE

so i have these brand new brushes i need to get off of my hands. they are great Stila cosmetics quality. i am only accepting PAYPAL. shipping for US only $2.99

if you have a question, post under here please.

Multi-Effect mascara
gives length, thickness and curls lashes.
$10.00


#2 under eye concealer brush
PRICE: $10.00


#4 precision eyeliner brush
I use this for a thin smudgey line under my bottom lashes.
What's it made of? The bristle is pony.
PRICE: $10.00


#5 all over shadow brush
What's it made of? The bristle is pony and goat.
PRICE: $10.00


#9 all over blend brush
THIS IS MY FAVORITE BLENDING BRUSH!!!!
What's it made of? The bristle is fine goat.
PRICE: $10.00


#10 eyebrow/paint pot/angle eyeliner brush
What's it made of? The bristle is a super-soft synthetic fiber called Taklon.
PRICE: $10.00


#11 face concealer brush
What's it made of? The bristle is a super-soft synthetic fiber called Taklon.
PRICE: $10.00



#26 perfecting concealer brush
What's it made of? The bristle is a super-soft synthetic fiber called Taklon.
PRICE: $10.00


#24a cheek/highlight brush.
price: $10

VistaPrint.com

so, a couple years ago, i was on Queen Of Blendings myspace. (if you have no idea who she is, youtube her. SHE IS AMAZING!!!) ok back to the post lol. so she mentioned buying her business cards from vistaprint and how they are usually free. i didnt believe it at first but i signed up for their newsletters and little did i know my email was bombarded with FREE offers on so many things within a few days. i was so estatic to finally order some business cards for my Freelancing gig i would do. it just made me look more professional and it was also helpful in my MAC PRO card application.

WWW.VISTAPRINT.COM is honestly, a great site for starting up your business. its cheap or free. shipping is ok but at least youre getting a good deal on your purchase.

i must say one thing about the site though, when you put your order through THAT'S IT!! there's no changing it. it happened to me once lol i hope it never happens again.

well, i just put in another great order and here's a screen shot of my purchase. i got 250 business cards, 10 letter heads, 1 pen, 100 post cards, 1 note pad, and 140 return labels! i only really had to pay for the back side of my business card so that was $12.99. with shipping and the backside of my business cards it came out to.........

$25.09!!!!!



i'm telling you this site is amazing! i have a widget on the top left of this blog. click it and go to the vistaprint site.

Stila For Sale

hey every one
so, here are a few things i need to get rid of to make space in my makeup drawers. i only accept paypal. shipping will be for US only. out of the states, email me and we can wok something out.

this is a Stila sun spf 15 bronzing powder in Shade 02. it is the most universal shade. it gives a great glow to the skin. i have 2 of them and im selling them for $12.00 with shipping (US only)



this is the great soft shimmer plumping lipglaze in citrus mint. i have 3 of them. $10.00 with shipping each. (US ONLY)



50 spf!!!! yes 50! lol. great stuff. $10.00 with US shipping. i have 2 so let me know if youre interested.

my new brushes <3

so i went a little crazy at the tiffanys store and mac. i decided to get some new brushes i had been eyeing for long time. i said to myself, school is starting soon and i just paid $600 in tickets so fuck it... im gonna splurge in MAC. glad i did lol.



http://tinyurl.com/mojug4
so, well.... this brush isnt a necessity but its a nice bursh. i do like how it glides so nicely over my lid. making the angled eyeliner look is an easy breeze as well. for almost $20 bucks, its not a must have brush, but im still happy with the purchase lol.



http://tinyurl.com/lbq49c

THIS IS A MUST!!!! its perfect for paint pots and creamy products. its goes on like a dream and i cant believe how in love i was when i used it. its magical! $27 is a bit pricey but it is very, very well worth it.



http://tinyurl.com/care7k

ahhhh, the pencil brush.... ive used it a few times. mainly under my bottom lash line. its alright so far. im sure ill figure out a way to fall in love with it. just give me time :)



http://tinyurl.com/m5wwh7

THE BEST BLUSH BRUSH I HAVE EVER USED!!!! HANDS DOWN! AMAZING! well worth the $34 something. i looooooooove this brush. its, just the shit lol.

last but not least, the 136... i couldn't find a picture online and my camera has been misplaced. its great for soft applications of powders. its a paddle brush so it took a couple times to get use to. its about $50 something bucks. worth every penny. lol.

ok so that was my shopping spree i had the other day. thought id let u guys know what ive been loving and not so loving yet. love u all. talk to you soon. :)

NEW The Colossal Volum' Express® Mascara

hmm, i couldn't help myself from checking out a new mascara since i always need a new tube. i am a huge mascara skank lol. i can never get enough. anyways, after watching the commercials, i finally decided to pick up a tube.

i was pleasantly surprised at first. did clump a little after apply it 3 times or more. no real big problem to me. then through out the day, HELL. lol. not only would i find little bits of mascara on my face and cheek bones every one would tell me about them magically appearing. lol.

its an OK mascara, it doesn't run if you randomly are thrown in a pool but those mascara flakes left on my face were just killing me.

*update 2*

hey hey hey

how are all my beautiful subbies? i have missed you guys so much. i have been insanely busy with so many things in life i have neglected everything i get joy from, which includes you guys. i used to play with my makeup at least 5 times a week, now i just let it sit in my drawers. i used to take trips to mac to buy up anything and everything that caught my eye, now i just go in to get the necessities like concealer and powder lol. i used to make cards all the time for hours at a time. now, i just let all my crafts sit on my desk collecting dust.

youtube used to be on the very top of my priority list when i would get free time. now its been moved to the bottom of the list with all my other hobbies because i need to catch up on my sleep. unfortunately, i have been working non-stop around the clock just to pay for all my stuff.

aside for all my regular bills i have monthly; i am in the process of eliminating the little debt i have in the next two months all while saving up for school next semester. life sucks being an adult, (lol)but thats just how life is.

well, my loves... i must get going. i have work in a little. i need to get ready for that. BLAH.

see you soon, i hope.
Vanes

-p.s.
for everyone messaging and commenting on youtube, yes i work at victorias secret lol. theyve been sucking up a lot of my time so dont shop there.... haha im kidding, they have cute stuff.